The Memoirs of George & Myself

Another EMO Night :(

2010-12-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

I feel the wind blow in this place
There I see the stars beyond this window pane
Shining so bright, here in this night
Here I feel I feel sense of love
Deep in my heart, I cry for you
Every tear that falls feels like a wound
The stars in the skies
Gently shines, taking away my pain
I hear a voice gently saying
Don’t be afraid, I feel the warmth come over me
As I sleep in their embrace
And even though I do not have the strength to go on
Even though I try to hold on
This love will never ever be meant for me
But I’ll keep on smiling
Even though my dreams won't come true
I’ll remember ever moment with you
Like the stars that shine forever
I’ll treasure my love, for you

如果你爱上了别人…我会笑着放开你

2010-11-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

一个人游走在路上，

看着来来回回的人群，耳边忽然回响起朋友问我的一句话…

“如果有一天，你爱的人突然告诉你，他爱上了别人，你会怎样？”

‘放开他…’

这是我的回答…

听着我的答案，朋友接着问我…

“难道，你就不想去坚持那份爱？”

呵呵…如果，真的会有那一天，

‘坚持’我又何尝会不想…

试问，又有几个人能够如此潇洒的说放弃就放弃…

但是，一味的坚持，

是否就会等到自己想要的？

如果不行…又何苦要让自越陷越深…

当爱你的人，爱上另一个人…

别傻傻的以为，

能够用自己的天真，

去唤回那不安的灵魂…

每一天，只能够一个人痴痴的等…

面对那受伤的另人心疼的眼神…

当等待痛苦的眼泪落下…

倦了…累了…

你才会笑着对自己说：

当初，又何苦逼着自己一个人，面对爱给的伤痕…

爱情是两个人的事，

感情的付出，

不是用一颗真心，

就一定能够得到结果…

别傻傻的问自己到底应该怎么做，

才能够维持长久不变的爱情…

总有一天，你会真正懂得，

爱…是自己给自己的伤痛…

给的伤痛，也就只有自己才能够真正解脱…

亲爱的，

如果有一天，你对我说，你爱上了别人…

我会流着泪，

笑着对你说‘分手’…

因为我爱你，所以我知道强求的爱得不到任何结果…

因为我爱你，所以我会毫不犹豫的放开你的手…

因为我爱你，所以我希望你能够得到你想要的幸福…

因为我爱你，所以当你转身离去时，我会流着泪，给你最真诚的祝福…

因为我爱你，所以我谢谢你给了我一次爱的机会…

因为我爱你，所以我深深的明白

爱，是一感受，即使痛苦，都会觉得幸福…

爱，是一种体会，即使心碎，都会觉得甜蜜…

爱，是一种经历，即使破碎，都会觉得美丽…

Acting Cool

2010-08-22T11:06:00.001+08:00

ops.... what's this... acting cool....

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Veuve

2010-08-21T13:50:00.000+08:00

Hey diary,

Last Nighti drank the bottle - Veuve
Last week was MOET

but... i don't really like them both.
I still prefer Lambrini.
Expensive stuff nowadays was never too good.
Maybe it was me. Born Low. :p

They say, Life is Short.
Might as well enjoy it before it ends with regret.

i PM my pilot friend
in MSN requesting him to teach me how to fly a plane
so that i would know how to get to Tibet China where the ship were made.
I know that was absurd.. but u will never know what you have learnt
had be come very handy sometimes, might be life saving too.

I was so left behind with my French. :p
Anyway, trying hard to cope. Prefer to increase my mandarin writing skill

I was trying to give up Ice Skating~~~
so that i can spend more time with my Gym and also my Golf.
but im always lack of motivation...
always...
doing something not important...

Moreover,
there was another nice movie i would like to share
INCEPTION!
best movie after Slumdog Millionaire 2009
Lets bet, they will surely get it in Oscar for this year.

Have you watch em?
If not, that's your loss.

My new Baby name Tissot (Baby-T)

2010-08-15T20:58:00.001+08:00

I have been holding back myself for some time. Today finally i made up my mind to purchase a watch for myself. The last watch that i purchase was 10 years back with a brand name "CAT" Cool enough for my childhood.

My Initial plan is to purchase a "Tag Heuer" or "Omega" But after thinking over it for some time. I better purchase brand that suits my status. "Tag Heuer" or "Omega" has been way too high for me although i can afford to buy one.

Finally Tissot is the brand i choose... a brand that is sporting enough and young looking also the price range suits a guy who only work for 3 years.

It is hard though to choose a watch. Especially me who is very very very "picky" over this type of thing. After 1 hour in the shop i manage to choose 2 & Finalize with the following :D

A Closer look to my Baby-T

Pampering Day

2010-08-15T00:01:00.001+08:00

What is better than pampering your self with some good food?

This is my Starter

First Main Course. It looks weird and not tasty to me... however this piece of shit is awesome ~~!!!

Second Main Course... some vegetarian course.... dont know what the fuck that was...

Always End yourself with some Ice-Cream & Wine :-D

The meal would have been greater if i am accompany by some hot chicks.

Present from God Sister

2010-08-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

I've receive a lot of gift in this year birthday however i would rate this as my best gift of the year. It is not about price or what i receive. i just feel very happy after reading the card she gave to me.

The packaging looks really nice. Don't know why i think i love the packaging more than the present. Haha

Tada~~~ Just a Simple Portable Speaker that produce kinda nice sound

Un-wrap~~~ 2 Cute Droid

Then what i am surprise is this 3 card~~~ from the same person... out of curiosity i read them with my fullest attention.

The Message it's really long. however it really shows me how well my "Kai Mui" understand me and love me.

So, i will take some time to type out the long message

Card 1

Yes... Yes... Just as MR Emo at front says "Believe in Yourself"

You know when you be confident and put up your effort in everything you do, you can achieve the good result. So never give up!!!

Ganbateh... Ganbateh.. You can do it!!!

Move a step forward, never look back, then you see that you stand ahead than others

I cant do anything for you. Just can give you some encouragement whever you fell Down.

Cheers,

Rika

Card 2

I believed that god always take care of you and your family. so, whenever you are down, pray to the lord Jesus Christ to give you strength & adding your faith so you can go through the sorrow with the strong heart. When you happy, remember to always thank him coz what you got is from him who provides you.

Be a wise guy...

Ahhh... Feels like i talked... oops i wrote too much... hehehehe...

1 more time "Happy Birthday George"

Gd Bless You,

Rika

Card 3

Happy Belated Birthday to Georgy...

hmm... now was thinking what am i gonna write for you hahaha...

1st thing of coz happy belated birthday...

2nd things wishing you all the best things will come to your life.

Better future for you

Remember to always be greatefull to what you have.

From year to year, wish you become more mature guy, in your action also your thought.

Well, also wish you will never be alone in each of your birthday.

So many thing to wish... hmmm...

I tried to pour out what i have thought of , squeeze my brain >.<"

think... think... think..

Always be happy and cheer up yo~!!!

Best Regards

Rika

This present shows me that she know i love music so she gave me a great portable speaker so that i could have quality sound where ever i go. Music that could calm every bad thing that happen to me.

She have been praying for me all the time. Also asking me to pray so to get gain guide from god. Although i am not Christian, but yes... thank you Rika

Can see's that she is trying to write something to tell me that "Hey, there are still people love you out there... done blame yourself this this and that that" i totally get the message dear~~ i love you too...

Not to sound long winded... This is the best present in the year 2010... it really touch me... & i almost... T_T

Happy Birthday to ME

2010-08-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

Kinda a late post~~~ however i would like to thank those friend of my who take time to celebrate for me... great food great present and great friendship. I Love all of you...

Jocelyn Group - Awsome Makan trip... eat till i gemuk liao haha...

Ruzainah - Thanks for the Long Journey call & Chat

Yeen - Fantastic to see u back to Malaysia but now Back to Aussie again

Edmond - Great Dining with you...

Papa & Mama - Love the time i spend with you all...

Star Planet Buddy - Yeah... wonderful Fine Dining and surprise... ( Girls~~~!!!!! ) :D

Nanny - Long Winded SMS

Lastly but not least... Everyone who SMS & Call me or Facebook me... Thank you all so muchie...

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2010-07-19T08:46:00.001+08:00

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Soaking myself & Relax!!!

2010-07-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

~~It took 15 Minute to fill this up~~

I know it is "GAY" but i took it @_@ Smile~~

This is a fake Post of Sleep. But Seriously i am so tired that i sleep while i am in the tub

Woi~~!!! Dont need to peek... it's Covered ^_^

Hide Hide Hide... Scare the water... head dare not go down~~

I actually Put a "Double Bath Form" into my TUB hohoho but still not enough... tomorrow shall ask for 6 to 10 from Room Service

~JB Week again~

2010-07-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

Staying in "Mutiara Hotel" this week. a 4 star rated hotel in JB. The lobby & Lift is not impressive... however the room is good enough to satisfied me. I actually say "Not Bad~~"

The View from the entrance

My Client Book me a 2 Super Single Bed Room

I can Jump on each other~~ Weee~~~

The Basin

Finally the bathtub for a good Relaxation after work!!!

Today i bought a "Beggers Chicken" so call "Hak Yi kai" for dinner... it cost me RM24 Ringgit... It have 1 WHOLE chicken inside....

After the Mud is Unwrap

Tada~~~ My Dinner... 1 CHICKEN + MEE HUN Singapore

Papago ~ Red Light Camera !!!!

2010-07-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

A Surprising Message from my little "Papago"on my way to Mutiara Hotel Johore

2010-07-07T21:08:00.001+08:00

不要因为寂寞而爱错人

更不要因为爱错人而寂寞一生。。。

有时候....丢了的自己，要记得捡回来...

2010-07-03T10:22:00.000+08:00

有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆
有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。
有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。
有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。
有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。
有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。
有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。
有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。
有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。
有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。
有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。
有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。
有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。
真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。
有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。
有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的无影无踪。
有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。
有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。
有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。
有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。
有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。可当那个可以疼你的人出现的时候，你却偏执地退隐。
有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。
有时候，被别人伤害，嘴上讲没事，其实心里难过的要死。
有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。
有时候，很容易感动别人的关怀，有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。
有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。
其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。　　
跟朋友装沉默，跟陌生人讲心里话。对于在乎你的，不想让Ta们担心，有时候，没有消息就是一种好消息。其实，很想说“我很好”，或许是昧着心说谎，也只是想把最灿烂的一面，放在每个人对自己印象的首页。
丢了的自己，要记得捡回来……

Mr KL with Buddy

2010-06-22T23:04:00.000+08:00

Edmond Getting himself Coloured & Preparing for competition

Kamarul, Competing for lower category

Me & My All time Buddy

Xiao Bai & Edmund

Xiao Bai & I

Wilson & I (11 years Buddy)

Edmond in action 1

Edmond in action 2

Edmond in action 3

All other photo is uploaded into my facebook ^_^

What will YOU choose?

2010-06-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

I have been wondering the whole night... why am i doing it? Tomorrow suppose to be my first day of LONG Annual Leave... but i am actually going to work in the morning ? 9AM appoinment ? a meeting regarding some SALES?

This actually leads me to "for Karen" or "For myself". when i say for karen... it means go to the meeting "ALONE" get the sales done. she get the commision... she have sales... good for her... taa daa.... gratzz to my friend....
Or....
For myself... which means... go for a nice jog in the morning... then follow by gym & Golf session... pampering myself with a nice lunch date... maybe + a hair cut with Nanny in the afternoon.... which is something really nice... cool... and awsome~!!! relaxing~~!!

But i have actually promiss her and say... ok... i will go... but why ?? i dont know... i really dont know... maybe that is because friendship is more important than myself... more important than my Annual Leave... By doing such... does she really care?? does she really appreciate?? will she actually thinks that... "george is such a wonderful friendz??" nope... i dont think so... Maybe that is the advantages to have me as her friendz...

Imagine, i am in her situation... and she is in my shoe... i am very sure.. she will say... sorry i am on leave tomorrow... please call another guy... so now... here comes a question... is it worth of me... doing such thing? Like you all know that... i am actually damn sick with those people in my office already... well... maybe i should say.. i am not good enough to fit into them... "why am i so stupid?" this is the words that Vivien used on me.. haha... seriously i dont know why... it is just in my blood...~~~

Anyway i have made my decision i am going tomorrow and thats it... ^_^ Wish Me LUCK!!! hope i dont get piss off with that "Shumacher face with Crooked Face & Teeth" Girl from client side.

Ganbateh!!!!

I felt that i am so Cheap~!!!

2010-06-15T14:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i felt like i am a really cheap bastard. cheap not in the sense of 贪小便宜. you see the following is the situation....

June 24 suppose to be one of my friends birthday. So i actually Booked her 1 month before June 24 which is like May 24. The answer i get its like. "its too early" "i cannot make up my mind" but the main answer is "i will get back to you later~~!!!."

It was totally fine with me. i can wait... As for my concern is that i have booked her 1 month in advance. I am expecting to date her any date before her birthday. As i know she will be busy during the week of birthday. If you Book her last minute she will say "you so late only date me ~~~ where got free..." when you book her early... she will say "So early... i cannot confirm..." wtf man~~ this really makes me looks like and idiot. a cheap bastard~~ i mean come on... i am celebrating your birthday with you... but i am like Begging you to come out? ok now... why do i use the word "Begging" i have send more than 3 to 5 SMS and even make more than 3 to5 Call to confirm the date. but the answer i get its like "I am busy right now", "i cannot confirm now", "i will tell u later" but in the end. nothing happen...... zzzzzzzzz the worse is when you sms her... there is no reply!!!! what the fuck they think i am? a doll ? sometimes i do wonder if they treat me as their friend... or maybe just some puppet to fool with.

Its just a normal date of dinner with celebration to her birthday. If she really treat me as a friend would she even hessitate? No way right ?

I am pissed and i felt i am so cheap. I have send her the last sms to confirm the date. If no reply then that's it. Worse to worse i will throw away the thing i have plan and buy for her bithday. Money only ma... i have fucking alot... 我当人是宝，他人当我是草....

Aquarium 2010

2010-06-13T21:11:00.002+08:00

When is the last time i took picture of myself ? Haha

My Lovely Turtle ~~~

Unknown Fish.... Probably... my future white ikan bilis~~~

Nemo Nemo
Under water world feeding~~

Omg~~!!! i want to go redang!!! experience the under waterworld!!! :(

Fake-ers~~~

2010-05-31T22:47:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i really do not understand why there are so many Fake-ers around us. It does not only appear at people that we dont usually know.

The Most Disappointing part is that when you look at 1 of your "friend" which u dont even know if she treat u as a REAL friend is a Fake-ers

They Seems to hide everything away from you... when they need you... they will come to you... talk to you... but when they dont need u... they will never even appear in front of you... if we are friends... why should there be secret? they like to know things about you... but when u wanna ask about their thing... they will just simply answer or not telling you... they are good in diverting all sorts of thing.

I do know alot of things that is happening around. when i look at them and observe them... thing is just so fake... what can i do??? Keep Quite lor... what else? just accept that... it is part of our life that people are meant to be fake~~~!!

But i am happy it does not appear in my Buddies. All my Buddies is very sincere and we do not hide things from each other... we talk the talk and we walk the walk...

Help me... help me~~~ i just cant bear with fake-ers... how how ??? omg~~!!!

Owning~~

2010-05-28T20:57:00.001+08:00

幻觉

2010-05-21T12:13:00.000+08:00

我本来以为这一次是真的
我幻想了几个星期的未来又是落空
我小小的心灵一碰就碎
也许我不应该全都在想我自己
现实和梦境总是要有不可跨越的界限
我会尝试从幻想中抽离
只是我中毒太深一时来不及
我会抹去我幻想了多个星期的梦境
请让我安静面对我一人的孤寂

Tune Hotel - Danga Bay

2010-05-16T21:31:00.007+08:00

Tune Hotel that i will be staying for this coming 1 week. Tune Hotel Suppose to be air asia hotel But this one in JB is 45 minute drive from airport... which is 10 minute walk to the sea LOL!!! where is the air plane gonna land? the sea??? Maybe is called Sea ASIA

The Corridor of Tune Hotel. The way to my room~~~ Kinda Shining huh~~ still new :D

The price for this hotel is really cheap... 6 day which cost me only RM28 * 6 = RM168.... however it is subjected to the demand. Their system seems to be cater for the supply and demand curve... when demand increase...the price increase!!! keng leh~~~ i got mine at RM28 so i guess it would be No Demand at the moment~~ hahaha

These are the Prepaid Stuff.

Aircon - 24 hour RM 21
Internet - 24 Hour RM 12 (Once Login, cannot logout... so i assume is 1 day login RM12)
TV - 24 Hour RM9.99 (Once Login, cannot logout... so i assume is 1 day login RM9.99) this is really Stunner to me

This is my Aircon prepaid!!! 71 Hour Left

My TV Count Down...

and

THIS is my ROOM~~~ tadaaa~~~ A Big Mirror on top... to make the room looks bigger

The way to washroom with door-less wardrobe

From my Bed to the TV @_@

1 Week Stay = RM333.66

真的爱了又怎么可能那么轻易放得了手呢？

2010-05-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

如果会有那么一天，
我们的感情到了无话可说的地步，
你会作出什么样的选择呢？
是留下还是离开呢？
或许我不该问你这样一个问题，
因为连我自己都觉得这问题真的好傻，
我知道真实的答案我无法接受，
但却又不想得到美好却又虚伪的回答，
如果真的有那么一天，
我依然希望你能留在我的身边，
虽然那样的爱情已经不值得留恋了，
但请别怪我爱你爱得那么深，
我承认我真的很自私，
但自私的原因很简单，
因为我是真的爱你了...
有人说不爱了就该放手，
让她好好的去追求自己的幸福，
或许这样的结束对谁都好，
但我就是放不了手，
真的爱了又怎么可能那么轻易放得了手呢？
就算知道那结果会是遍体鳞伤，
我也认了，
我愿意以我的伤痛，
争取最后的一点点的时间...
谁叫，我真的动情了呢？
放手真正存在的意义是在于领悟以后，
而不是在一个人伤痛时，要她放手，
因为懂得放手的人不必要你说，
她自动会放下，
而不懂得放手的人，
就算你说了一万次，
她依旧放不了手...
了不一定会放手，
一个人会真正地放手，
只有在她绝望的时候....

2010-05-06T20:49:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow might be the end of the world
I do not want to leave with regrades
I want to forgive all I could
To love all I can
To get the most of every second.

-George (2010)

I Wanted You

2010-03-28T21:09:00.001+08:00

Thinking

2010-03-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

I like to think that, I am giving inspiration of some form to some people.
I like to think that when I write I have took time to organise myself and to heal myself.
I like to think that, I have effectively used writing to express what I cannot express with my poor verbal communication skills.
I like to think that, my writing is classified as an art form, such that interpretation is open, and that it is beyond the superficial meaning of words itself. My words do not necessarily have to mean what they should mean, but should mean what they ought to mean to you.

2010-03-03T17:14:00.000+08:00

Came Accross this video and it is like... wow... Wicked Cool :D

2010-02-18T13:18:00.002+08:00

I am still lucky i guess
The angle is till around me. ^^
My guardian angles would be Berlyn & Joanne.
They are merely just a God-Sister of my,

They oftenly give me strength.

Another Angles would probably be Yee Bing,

The one who always manage to cheer me up in any chats.

I was checking my email.
with surprise...
This email stunned me long.
Long enough that i couldnt speak. >_<
Cheers~~~

You know?

The little email is nicely design with the following message
It says:

"George knowing you was never a regret to us. You are the 1 friend that we will never forget. Hoping you could climb up from that fall & Reach the peak of you like what you are before~~ We will always love you."

Blink blink.Dear Heavenly Lord,
Thanks for the blessing and having a group of Angles with me
Muacks~~~

Lazy

2010-02-18T13:09:00.000+08:00

Lazy to update my BLOG
Lazy to Go Out
Lazy to Hang Out
Lazy to Take Photos
Lazy to Talk
Lazy to do Work~~
What i do is eat and sleep

You're better than that !!!!

2010-01-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows.

It is a very mean and nasty place
and it will beat you to your knees
and keep you there permanently if you let it.

You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life.
But it ain't how hard you hit;
it's about how hard you can get hit,
and keep moving forward.

How much you can take,
and keep moving forward.
That's how winning is done.

Now,
if you know what you're worth,
then go out and get what you're worth.

But you gotta be willing to take the hit,
and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody.
Cowards do that and that ain't you.

You're better than that!

遺憾

2010-01-14T13:20:00.001+08:00

與其讓你在我懷中枯萎　寧願你犯錯後悔
讓你飛向夢中的世界　留我獨自傷悲
與其讓你在我愛中憔悴　寧願你受傷流淚
莫非要你嘗盡了苦悲　才懂真情可貴

Choice

2010-01-10T23:06:00.003+08:00

向左走，向右走
人生有许多十字路口
每个都带你前往下一个不同街头
如何选择才能不回首

向左走，向右走
困扰迷惑我双眸
无尽困难就在等候
选择背后仍有选择在恭候

向左走，向右走
每一步与目标距离拉近多少
还是加剧旅途之遥
如何选择才不烦恼

向左走，向右走
脚步和思考是否一致
快或慢会否将简单变成复杂
如何选择才能开心满足

向左走，向右走
要怎样才能将人生看透
不想在疑问的圈子里兜
用选择将每一段快乐并凑

She is Leaving

2009-12-10T12:43:00.002+08:00

Last Night... I dream of her leaving the company... i hate that feeling... and now i knew that it is not a dream... it was all happening...

"不知道为什么...我的心好像碎了一样"

What Should I Do

2009-11-27T20:50:00.003+08:00

You told me that "you are so childish", But you act like you are more childish than me.

You told me that "your maturity level is low", But you never shows me that you are more mature than i do.

You goes around telling people what i've done... but have you ever think about what you have done?

You says that i show faces when we go out. But did you know that it was you who show face first?

You says that i kept quite when i go out. But did you know that you never even talk to me & how do i talk?

You says that i was not sporting... But did you know i'm a very sporting guy & open minded guy but... is just that the environment you created was not allowing me to do thing?

You Promise that we could be better than friend... But i guess that everything was a lie & when i think about it, it bring tears to my eye

You always mention so many things about me to other... But did you know the truth? Did you know that i kept everything to myself and make it looks like everything was my fault?

I did so many things to kept our friendship... but...

You... You...

Everything... I... Do.... was... just....

Oh God... I'm lost now... i need help... Everything Seems so difficult

Wondering

2009-11-18T22:34:00.002+08:00

I was writting my blog.... for the pass 30 minute.... i written alot of thing... that i wonder.... but all of a sudden... she msn me....

then i delete everything that i write.... with only 1 word bellow....

I Wonder.....

Word of my Heart

2009-11-15T13:11:00.002+08:00

I face the world & my day with a smile,
No one knows what is hide inside but me
They see only happiness, but cant see the tears I've cried.
When I am alone I hurt, Because here I do it well.
In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell.
The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say.
In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day.
It seems like I gave her up, but inside me i still sing her song.
I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had.
If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad.
They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again.
But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been?
I've traveled so far, and can't find my way back.
I saw her just today and her smile is still the same.
She looked at me so sweetly, but never spoke my name.
I wonder if she ......
It hasn't been that long, but I will forever sing her song.

今天伟智的心....死了....

2009-11-11T12:21:00.010+08:00

Nothing can explain more than this sentence, "我越来越恨自己... 我伤心...又不开心...是因为我伤害了你..."

All this time when i was falling in love. All i get is only falling apart....

There's Nothing I can do, total eclipse of my heart...

she was the light of my life... but now is only dark in the sky

There's Nothing i can say...nothing i can do... total crash my of heart

Moments of Words

2009-11-05T23:46:00.002+08:00

Nothing is happier than seeing my mom going to the market and buy fruits and food...to see her smilling.... Eating more food than what she has been eating for the pass 1.8 years... she goes for morning walk too...

Mom, I Love You... Get Well Soon.

Chilling Waterfall & Fraser Hill

2009-10-19T21:04:00.006+08:00

Came back from a trip to Chilling waterfall & Fraser Hill with Mon Fong, Lynn , Calvin, Li Mei & My Orisoft colleague

An one hour drive then we pass through the Selangor Damn... opsss i mean DAM

Our Driver of the day... Calvin With HIS MYVI!!!

Then we reach our destination, we are 25 minute or more earlier than my orisoft friend... they followed the long way... the HIGHWAY!!!

Trekking into the waterfall...

Crossing the stream~~~ 1

Crossing the stream~~~ 2
Crossing the stream~~~ 3
Wasn't able to take some of the stream due to the water is up to my waist... >_<

The Top of Chilling waterfall

Some Random Flower that i capture in Fraser Hill

Lynn Sweet Smile

Path way of Fraser Hill
Eating in a restaurant

After a full tiring day in Chilling waterfall & Fraser hill... I SLEPT FOR 1 whole day on sunday

2009-10-14T22:01:00.004+08:00

How can we not appreciate...

what ever we had now...

Human are always

and always greedy...

Always ask for more...

For now...

I'm not really Happy...

But...

I'm satisfied...

!George!

穷

2009-10-13T12:25:00.004+08:00

突然发现

接下来这二个星期

我只可以用RM300

穷~

~Sunday~

2009-10-11T21:13:00.003+08:00

This morning as i woke up...

it was already 8.00am...

I Rush to the kitchen to prepare food for my beloved mom...

After that i was too Lazy to do anything...

so might as well continue to sleep more... (After Eaten my Brunch)

Anyway... gonna be grounded today..

Need to finish some work. do ironing.

go town to do some banking

Last night, was another night that i feeling kind of down...

I sms her last night, wanted to have some chat

She reply "NO" I asked why ? she answered "Just Dont feel like talking"

I wondering if other people call her sure this thing wont happen,

why ? i don't understand...

But i know what she is trying to do.

So i opened 1 bottle of white wine, and start drinking with some Choc...

then this morning wake up so late.... TMD!

ohya... i spend some money on my hobby
I purchase my new lens leh!!!! Tamron 17 - 55 F2.8 :D (The one i broke last time)\

I'm going to collect it tomorrow :D woohooo... but i am kind of fucking broke~~ T_T

But i was thinking to save money

so that i can spend on my next incoming trip for travelling

or perhaps buy a new car or do some investment!!! Chio leh. ^^

orrrrr go Ausstralia to find my friend & my Broda...

maybe....

dunno...

need plenty of money

but i guess i will see how it goes first ^_^

"It happens to even the best man out there: After meeting some girl they love, he will sacrifice everything for her

So Please Talk to me.... Speak with me... You hesitate...You seem to wait.... For all the time we had... Feels like a world is away from me~~~."

Beautiful Life

2009-10-06T20:50:00.002+08:00

Beautiful Pictures are developed by negative in a dark room. Whenever we see darkness in our life, that is because there is a beautiful life ahead waiting for us

The Collection

2009-10-05T22:30:00.002+08:00

My Collection 1 month back, from left (2004 Lafitte, 2001 Carbenet Souvignon, Chateau Leudenne Medoc 2004, Hunter Valley Shiraz 2005, Special Reserve Port, Classic Tawny, 2002 Jean Leon Merlot, Choya Extra Year Japanese Umeshu)

After 3 week came back from Langkawi i left only the Following!!!!

Unfortunately My "Chateau Lafite Rothschild 2001" is not able to be in my post... already Open and drank with Stephanie

Dedication to "Her"

2009-10-02T00:40:00.004+08:00

This is dedicated to someone that I’ve been love for almost 2 years

I didn’t realize that the time pass so fast, I don’t expect either

Everything just... I don’t know....

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need

The one that I gonna have just to proceed

Our first day is so magical that makes me remember all the time that I had with you

Remember when we first met in a dine?

You looked like an angel wearing that blouse...

When first saw you and looked into your eyes

It was like an angel flying in the skies...

It was like God was there and heaven in the skies...

What about when you looked into my eyes?

Now that you look at me like I ain’t shit

You looked at me like you never even know me...

I’m not even a thought in your mind

I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I can see clearly, my love is not blind

I want to love you like no one else could love you

You’re number one, always in my heart

but i cant believe that my love has been thorn apart

It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart...

Without you, everything seems strange

Your name is forever planted in my brain and painted in my heart...

Damn it, I’m insane, please take away the pain

I guess everything you said was a lie

I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes

now I try... I try... I try... and I’m trying

not to love you... but just be a friend of mine

Everything just seems so difficult!!!

I just... i just... hope that everything will be fine

Happy Birthday To My EX

2009-10-01T18:09:00.002+08:00

This post goes to someone out there, that was Once the most important person in my life

Even though i realize that time,

I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you

Just listen…

I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

You told me we were crazy in love

you loved me as much as you said you did

But i still hurt you like you ain't shit

I Guess i must have forget about the time we shared

When i run my fingers through your hair and hold you in my arms late at night

How Could i do you so wrong

To tell the truth, You’re still number one, always in my heart

I Still cant believe that i've thorn our love apart

I knew you gonna get a new man,

sitting, laughing and playing with this new man

So i wish you that with all my heart

That you will never with him tearing apart

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?

I didn’t think i would ever do you like this

Now i said you were my best friend, was that a lie?

Now i just hope that you could get another guy,

That is surely better and greater than the bad boy me

I Do Miss You So Here i just want to wish you

Happy Birthday

Sleepless Night

2009-09-30T22:58:00.004+08:00

我已经两天睡不着了，希望今晚睡得着

Un-Sleep Night

2009-09-29T22:06:00.005+08:00

Hoping is the first one half of the sentence is the answer.

It's exciting and yet doubting.

That how admiring someone would feel like.

Georgy u should know that curiosity would kill a cat!

Generous kills.

Where are all ur cool cool act?

Most of the mans like to do this!!!

Enjoying my Marriot Moon Cake with wine~~

Thinking of Her... How i Wish...

Happiness

2009-09-27T21:25:00.001+08:00

I’m not a good talker actually. Whenever I talk or speak surely & definitely will make some enemies. So please bear with me. what I am going to say next is about happiness... I mean how do we define happiness? And where does happiness coming from?

Someone once told me that “power of all relationship lies in whoever cares less.” Well she was right. Today I says that power isn’t happiness and I think that, maybe happiness come from caring more about people… whenever we care about others… they smile, happiness comes out from their face… it was a great feeling… it was great to see when they grin from ears to ears. It doesn’t matter if I’m happy or not. It is the matter of whether my friends are happy or not? Cost and worth is a total deferent thing… it might cost me a lot of effort to help a friend… but in the end what I think it is worth of my effort in helping them. When I care… I help… I give it and require no return…

But now I’m seeing things more clearly today than it can ever be. I see a lot of people who fake their way in relationships. It doesn’t matter in love or friendship… everything they do is just so fake, they lie in whatever they do, they say 1 thing and do another. They smile… but is not sincere… they talk to you… actually is just to entertain you… for love, they can tell you how much u mean to them but you actually not even worth a dollar to them. They can tell one lie to cover another lies. Where is the HONOESTY??? What about Credibility??? Why can’t for once in their life… they tell the truth?? I understand that the whole thing was a lie… and it absolutely make sense…

The facts of life is that, everyone behave differently… what I can do is that accept as who they are; show them only sincerity and the true self of me.

It doesn’t matter what other people say or criticise about me. I know what I do… I know who I am… it doesn’t matter who backstab me… or trying to be a “小人”. I believe that one day truth will review everything…

"Ninja Turtle" Raya

2009-09-22T22:55:00.006+08:00

Having a Boring raya after i've rejected all invitation from my friend for the RAYA celebration. So I Decided to help out my friend "Celine" with her costume design for some acting show. Basically i Spend 2 Day of Raya Holiday her house (Celine). Didn't really help much... I'm just being a nuisance there... Bellow is some of the picture taken in her house

Celine Busy SMS-ing her love one

Celine Working on her Coat

The Dress

Half Done Skirt

Another Dress

Get to know 2 new friend in her house. "Victoria" and "WaiMin" Both having a really deferent attitude. I even get to hear a "T-RAX CAT" haha

I wasn't reading the Wasabi chips catalog... i'm actually avoiding the camera :P

I'm Working on some badges while celine is working on the Zip!!!

It was a Wonderful Raya Sewing, But... I became "Ninja Turtle" after the first day of sewing... My Back Hurt like i carried a Tons of Kilo behind me...Just Like "Ninja Turtle" haha

I receive some question from my friend after helping out Celine The following is the question + Answer

1. Why are you willing to help her, i thought you promiss yourself never back to this again ?

Answer : I dont know, when she ask... i just agreed without hesitation

2. Who is she?

Answer : My Friend EX GF

3. You Teach her about Design? Few of your close friend cant even get you to help them or advice how come she can?

Answer : I dont know... it just came out from my mouth before i go home... It was nice talking to her... Just Give her some Tips hoping she can do better

4. Will you back to this industry? I Mean Design...

Answer : Erm... Probably Not... But Helping and teaching someone... maybe yes

很淡

2009-09-18T23:25:00.001+08:00

心情很乱。。。连写BLOG都写的乱七八糟

BiTcH!!!!

2009-09-18T22:23:00.002+08:00

What the hell on earth that make this woman so “不要脸”?

Why is she so unreasonable?

Why is her attitude so awfully bad?

Why this women so 贱格，无耻，下流，人渣

She fucks every dick she sees

She can scold people that did do anything wrong

She blames innocent people like they have done something wrong

She scolds other people mother for nothing… what the fuck is wrong with her?

She is so UNEDUCATED, no manners…

She says THINGS that DID NOT HAPPEN

When she lose, she will try to ruin other people image

She can make people scold my friend for nothing.

I feel like teaching her a lesson,

I want to slap her, punch in her face, put her face in the toilet bowl

As for HIM,

I want his head to be in HER asshole.

What the fuck is wrong with them? Who the fuck they think they are?

I want her to求生不得,求死不能

When my friend Karen told me that she get fuck up for no reasons. I really wanna drive to her office and smack her up properly.

I don’t care what ever bitch she is… once she mess with me… 都没有好下场

How can I ensure the girl I love is not USED or HARM by the bitch… I wanted to tell her not to get close to this Bitch but I don’t know how to say… I know something is happening but I couldn’t say… I know the bitch is using her… but what can I do?

我真得忍无可忍!!! I am worry I cannot control myself help~~!!!

Accident

2009-09-13T21:30:00.003+08:00

A lovely lunch date turn out to be an unlucky day for us. When a Kia Spectra came out from the junction causes us to Crash into their car. Driving at 80km/h we crash into the Kia Spectra. I was on a telephone conversation with my colleague Livon, asking about facial product. All off a sudden the car came I knew we are crashing into their car… quickly I use leg pushing toward the car dashboard and to use my knee to reduce the impact, because “I AM NOT WEARING a Safety belt”. When we crash, everything in my mind is. “Oh God, I’m dead & I’m gonna flung out of this car and die!!!” Second thing is “God Please take good care of my Family, Friends & the one I love.” With this 2 thing in my mind, I feel the force pushing me forward… my knee bend.. my chest hit my lap… and my head move toward the windscreen and hit on the wind screen and then follow by the dash board… this feeling give me back the feeling of me crashing in Kajang toll Highway 2 years back.

My spectacle flew, my hand phone flew I didn’t know what is happening at the very moment as I am in total blurriness. I heard Livon speaking on the phone because it is kind of loud… I quickly pick up my phone, telling her that I had a car crash. She though “I Drop Something in Watson” with such a Loud bang!! >_<

I get out of the car; the opposite driver is an Indian. Fuck up Indian. I remain calm… I let my friend do the talking… because if I do the talking I will ensure that his head is in his ass… Doesn’t he know how to drive properly?

My friend called his father… his dad rush to the scene… then we called some Pullman to bring the car to the police station. DUE TO BULAN PUASA!!! POLICE STATION IS CLOSE FOR 2 – 3 HOURS FOR BUKA PUASA… WTF!!!

Accept it!!! is MALAYSIA!!!

Lonely Dinner

2009-09-11T22:44:00.004+08:00

After a tired working day at Manulife. I plan to date people for dinner... Sadly it was all rejected I've friend who did not pick up my call, friend who say they have dated someone. So Seems like a day for Lonely Night. It was only 6PM without hesitate i drove to Souled Out and there's where my dinner gonna be.

I order a Jug of Beer & 2 Pan Pizza. Slowly I Enjoying my Drink & pizza. Halfway eating suddenly think of her so I sms her and chat. But sadly she did not Replied my Message. I think I know what she is thinking. Maybe she thinks that I am still after-ing her? Yes I admit I never give up because I love... But like what we have said. We are friends.

Started my dinner with a bite of... hmmm err... Salmon + Wasabi Pizza? (Forget what it is name )...It taste so Good!!
With my bbq chicken pizza full of Tabasco source… I suffer from spiciness. it was awsome!!!! but it spoil my previous Salmon + Wasabi Pizza. It is 2 deferent type of taste... haha but

Yummieeee

I cant believe that i spend my FRIDAY Night Alone...

哭泣

2009-09-06T20:49:00.004+08:00

今天...

不停的在远方看则你，心里唱则“最近” 和“很想说”的歌曲...

不停的回想你和你的声音

不停的想着你呐喊的

看则你那张活泼可爱的脸，我想知道在你心中我是什么

我的心跟我说我付出的在多也换不了你的心动

你让我憔悴很多

你让我不知所措你一举一动我的心被牵着走

当他们问我，我爱的是谁。。。

我真的想跟他们说。。。我爱的就是你。。。但是我不会说。。。应为。。。

我的心。。。又怎么了？

曾经伤过这么深。。。

明明是想想念着她。。。

可是为什么又不跟她说话呢，她就在我的前面而已

是担心她会避开你吗？

我真的真的。。。

可是不知道为什么。。。

感觉上。。表面上。。。她和我还是“好朋友”。。。

其实。。。唉。。。

心好烦。。。

不知该怎么办才好。。。

哭泣。。。哭泣。。。

她要上机回KL了bye bye

Tiring Day

2009-09-02T21:10:00.004+08:00

It was a tiring day of 1 day trip to JB. The flgiht was at 7.30 and i took a CAB to KLIA at 5.20. Reaching there around 6.10Am, i got myself a breakfast that cost me RM19.30 which have only a bread + nescafe!!! Enjoying my meal untill 6.50AM, then i walk toward the MAS Flight Gate waiting to be board.

Before Depart

After Departure, with my tiring mind i took this incredible view from the window with my HTC diamond. Staring into the cloud it make me thinking of how wonderfull is our mother nature.

My Flight Landed on Senai Airport safely. Took a Cab to Iskander and there i started my training and work. All the way untill 3PM where i prepare to go back to KL.

Take a look on the above Image where i took on the way back. Did you see the "NO MAN ALLOW" sign on the engine? Does this mean that "FEMALE" are allow to stand there? Haha... For people who have low IC or EQ like me i would ask a female to stand there instead...

Then i came accross this Sunset above the cloud on 25Thousand Meter Above sea level. When i saw this i became emo... which makes me write the following

"The plane captain said that the weather is fine,
I predict that love is just like the cloud
Love is cloudless
our heart can feel the changes of cold and warmth
when i look into your eyes, they’re reflecting the changes in weather
My intuition at a momentary instant in time
This time I’m really captivated
What should I do?
Acting silly in my dreams when I think of you?
What should I do? Do you know what I want, my God?
Love is like a breeze, drifting by just like you
Even the scent of the air will become sweet
When I just realized that it’s love, the world changed
When I am thinking of you, it’s love, the sky became cloudless
When I lift my head, i'm Hoping you are here in front of me
I don’t respond, no words to say
But the answers are already written on my face
Can’t resist, the corners of my mouth turn upward
Your eyes suddenly blinked
Your expression then became still at that moment
My heart beats uncontrollably"
空气都变甜甜的～ ^^

For
Sweet Sweet Kitty~

Bianco HairCut!!

2009-09-01T21:23:00.004+08:00

It was a tease to a friend of my to spend me for a dinner. But the SMS went into a haircut date! It is "七月" now.. I was worry that hey... who's that in the mirror... or maybe... the person who cut the hair for me sudently turn into a Lovely little Monster!! But i was like... hmmm it was a long time since i change my hairdresser. So i make a decision to follow her (ivy) for a hair cut... Well the hair cut looks a little weirdooo... or "笨蛋" It cost me RM40!!! which is RM4 more expensive than my usual haircut.

Far

Nearer

Sideway

Monkey Face!

So how's my New haircut?. For me it looks just like some China "笨蛋" face. But After Ivy say many times "You Looks FINE!!!" i felt ok with it after that... Maybe i am just not use to the looks of it. Or my Face is just way too Ugly.!!! even myself cannot accept it.

Well... I'm happy with it... not because of the haircut. i'm happy because I finally make her talk to me like a usual person... she smile and tease... it was great feeling.. instead of her giving me cold shoulder last time... It is worth paying to Teman a Friend to have a haircut!!! Although my Goal is to Leave my Hair Long...

I MMS Kitty to ask about her opinion... after 2 hour it is no replied.~~ Hmmm maybe she's busy with her thing... "Think Positive" ^_^

I'm Leaving to Johore Tomorrow morning to work coming back in the evening flight & tomorrow is July 14 in chinese calender... Wish me luck Friends!!! Pray for me... Amen!!!

Surprise MMS

2009-08-31T23:02:00.004+08:00

It was 7Am i was deep into my sweet slumberland after manage to struggle to fall asleep at 5.30Am!! Out of Suddent my Diamond got a MMS and guess what? I was awaken by the MMS Tone.. I receive the following image..
It was from the girl i love. I was surprise and shock by it... Because she havent sms or call me for like few months already... Aren't this picture lovely ? It was a nice sunrise... I still cant forget that i actually Reply her MMS her and say "It was a lovely SUNSET!!!" haha.. this prove that how blur i was that time. We manage a Chat for a while untill i fall asleep again half way smsing...

She told me that she was at the beach watching the sunrise Alone... at that time i was so wanted to be there WITH HER to see the sunrise... but... :(

\This MMS has make my Day Great.. Cheers

The Revival of MyBlog

2009-08-30T23:43:00.002+08:00

Time : 11.44pm 30-Aug-2009
Mood : Chill & Thinking alot of things
Drinks : Plain Water
Music Listening : 李圣杰-最近

It has been months since i've kill my Lovely & Active Blogger Blog; moving to Wordpress and Posting only Emotional Blog.... now i'm back to Blogger.

After spending sometime designing and planning the new looks. I Decided to take my First post ^_^

I'll Start my blog by telling it, "I'm sorry for leaving you for such a long time... now i am back and i will never leave you"

Some of you might wonder what have happen to me recently (Pass 1.8 years)... now I am ready answer to you guys honestly.... from my heart. No Hiding... The answer is as follow

"I've been down... yes... I've Love someone... but that someone do not love me... i've lost alot of my buddies... friends that i've know for so long... they leave me because of me leaving the girl that love me so much... and i do not give a damn to her when she came back to me, i rejected her for another girl that i love..

My family problem is another factors that causing the "Emo" Me. But now i will tell you all that you will NOT see the EMO me anymore. I will be as cheerfull as the olden days... i really appreciate those friend that is with me when i was really down. Thank You All so much.

I've so many things to say but i just couldn't type it out... So lets make this Short & Simple...

I'm Back!!! ^_^ "

I just came back from JB Business Trip and of course Singpore trip with my Office Team mate... There will be more story coming up next. I need some time to edit those picture & there is tons of thing to say especially the time in JB. Feeling so tired now... Time to sleep.. Cheers

The Memoirs of George & Myself

Another EMO Night :(

如果你爱上了别人…我会笑着放开你

Acting Cool

Veuve

My new Baby name Tissot (Baby-T)

Pampering Day

Present from God Sister

Happy Birthday to ME

Blog with Blogger Droid

Soaking myself & Relax!!!

~JB Week again~

Papago ~ Red Light Camera !!!!

有时候....丢了的自己，要记得捡回来...

Mr KL with Buddy

What will YOU choose?

I felt that i am so Cheap~!!!

Aquarium 2010

Fake-ers~~~

Owning~~

幻觉

Tune Hotel - Danga Bay

真的爱了又怎么可能那么轻易放得了手呢？

I Wanted You

Thinking

~~Lazy~~

You're better than that !!!!

遺憾

Choice

She is Leaving

What Should I Do

Wondering

Word of my Heart

今天伟智的心....死了....

Nothing can explain more than this sentence, "我越来越恨自己... 我伤心...又不开心...是因为我伤害了你..."

~~Moments of Words~~

Chilling Waterfall & Fraser Hill

穷

~Sunday~

Beautiful Life

The Collection

Dedication to "Her"

Happy Birthday To My EX

Sleepless Night

Un-Sleep Night

Happiness

"Ninja Turtle" Raya

很淡

BiTcH!!!!

Accident

Lonely Dinner

哭泣

Tiring Day

Bianco HairCut!!

Surprise MMS

The Revival of MyBlog

Lazy

Moments of Words